Okay so having something of my own is pretty cool.

I can log on and see my own creations being worn by others!
I see the comments under the picture "Her outfit is so cute! Where did you get it!?"
It makes you feel good inside.

When you register online to become a retailer of known brand names you usually fill out an application online and send off prof you have a sales tax certificate, then they just email you saying "Congratulation! You can now by whole sale..etc.."

Well this has happen twice now! I fill out the application send in the prof of certificate and I think okay ill get an email any day now...I not only get the Congratualtions email but a CALL from the company! Wow.. One sales to online venters all the time the other doesnt.. the once who doesnt tells me how impressed they are with my items and site..etc..

=D talk about a pat on the back . That was good ..more so when the start of the day wasnt!

No time for this!

My day starts at 7:30am and usually doesn't end until 2am.

most of the day I..play with the kids..clean...work on orders.. or I find myself browsing the net for the next item I want to post to the site.

Getting sick is not on the books for things we do !

I can't get sick! It sucks for me!

Who is going to take care of me when I'm sick!?!

Who is going to tuck me into bed ,kiss me on the head ,and bring me soup then check on me in an hour to make sure im still kicking!?

No one..
When I'm sick.. I still have to take care of everyone and the house and be super women all at the same time!

Even worse the kids are sick as well! Kaelyns ears are hurting the poor baby
Reese has some weird ass rash..

and my freakn head feels like its going to bust...
I need sleep !
No time for sleep
there is no time for any of this!

..Wish I could of stayed in bed...

..I hate days like today
The days that test you
The days that make you want to cry.
The days that you want to just be over with.
Days like this can't be over with soon enough.

I want to crawl back into my bed and sleep the day away.

Day starts @ 7:15 with .. a fit throwing , screaming , rash covered two year old...
... ear pulling.. teething.. 8month old who now is coughing..
... I dont want to go back to the dr with them.. It is so stressfull... and well embarrassing.. I feel like I can't control Reese when I'm there.. Everyone looks at me like Poor lady ..she needs help...I actually had someone once ask me what was wrong with him.. I responded he is two.. nothing has to be wrong with him..

Then its not even 10 and it has happen again with the same stupid product! The flower has arrived in pieces.. Looks like I need to ditch this product.. If it's goign to just fall apart during shipping..

That's it im done with it .. it is coming off the site!

Now I'm wondering how many other products are out there that have fallen apart that I dont know about..
I hope people dont think bad of me bc of this..

.. .I keep telling myself.. They said " I love my other products they are great ,Can't wait for the girls to wear them."

It just sucks... what's next.. I just know I'm going to get like 6 more emails just like this one where the product arrives in pieces..

Will someone please come over so I can just crawl back into bed..

.. Me without it.. not a pretty thing..

So this is sad to admit...
..I'm addicted to something so good...
The smell..
The taste...
The way it wakes you up !
Even the color is nice once fixed the way I like it.
..My day doesn't start until I have had a cup or two
..Im not very pleasent until I have had a cup.
... I hear on the weekends.. Hurry up and have some coffe so you will be nice =)
.. I seem like a spaze when we are driving down the road and as we pass a store I scream out "Oh oh STARBUCKS" ..

Ryan looks at me like .. we need to get you help..

Most of the time I have to settle for Mcdonalds or a cup of joe at home =/

If I dont get it my day seems to slug on.. I can't think...
It was super hard to go 9 months without any...

Oh Coffee how I Love you =D

My Little Stinker

She is definitely her fathers daughter.

Has his eye color.

His nose.

But she has my eyeshape. =D

She is a stinker this one.

Started before she was even born.

She is her Mama's daughter.

Always wanting things done yesterday.

Started at 20wks.. Contractions started.. so did the bedrest..

23wks .. she already wanted out!

That is when the hospital stay started!

Wow talk about the LONGEST 6wks of my life!

In and out of labor .. moved from one side of the hospital to the other over and over again!

Had some great nurses taking care of me though!

at 31wks they sent me home on strick bedrest.

34 wks .. I think... wait I KNOW I'm in labor.

Wait Ryan's not in town! She can't come yet!

Thank God Ryan's on his way and makes it !

She has arrived and she is so cute! She is PERFECT! She came out screaming!

No NICU stay ..wow but she is early!

She is strong like mama. =D

8months have already flown by.. she is still such a stinker.. started to crawl at 5 months.. and any day now I know she will start walking..

As soon as daddy gets home .. she goes from playing alone to screaming until he picks her up !

Everywhere we go we get stopped by someone so they can tell us just how cute she is ..

We are in trouble with this little girl already!

What if ..Would we or I or it...

..Okay don't take this in the wrong way..
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my kids like there is no tomorrow..
but I wonder what if Reese would of came just two year later...
What if we didnt get pregnant when we did...

Would we have traveled more..
Gone out more..
Have more..
Would we be doing more with friends without thinking twice...
Would I not be as stressed....

Would my boobs be this saggy...
Would my ass .. well.. look like it does..

I miss my smokin hot tight body..
I hate getting older..

Would we have moved to houston..
Where or what would be be doing ..

Even though I wonder all this.. all in all .. I can say I am where I SHOULD BE. I love my children and I'm truely blessed to have them in my life.

..It made me blush...

I got a text today!

Can't Remember the last time I got one like this..

Was it when we were dating...

it made me blush...

It read
"Just thinkin' about how sexy and awesome you are! Love you"

hehe